angel and demon, heaven and hell

The day of graduation has passed away, last Friday we gathered in the university for the graduation ceremony, we had our outfits of bachelars on and took a lot of pictures together. Then the graduation ceremony went on well and we received the certificates and diploma. It's all of a sudden but somehow a long long journey that we finally graduated.

 

The process of taking photos is fun. But looking at them, i am a bit blue that we are no more the innocent and worryfree students. Missed the day of skipping classes, staying up really late for final examination, going out to KTV all night long...Those days seems so clear in the memory but I know it for sure that they are gone, hidden in our heart now.

 

Yea, we all grow up and that means and brings a lot. But i am here writing now, in memory of my campus life that is left behind and fading away.

 

Today I am browsing other people's live space and suddenly recall that I haven't update my space for a long time. Time is always making joke with you. Three months later, I would be a fresh worker, away from campus. Life is moving in his direction and I am chasing closely. As for my thoughts about the last days of my university life, I think those days will never be forgotten, to chat late into midnight when the light is out, to stay up late for review and homework, to skip lesson and be caught by teachers...... Now I no longer live in the dorm and seldom go to campus. Campus life is fading away while working life is turning a new page.

 

Now as an webpage editor, I am quite new in this job and online game industry as well. But I will try my best to learn and adapt myself to the new environment. Colleagues are nice, boss is good too, apart from a little distance from home.

 

Classmates are all busy with their intern jobs or busy hunting jobs or whatever, life is sometimes cruel, society is always unfair, however, to have dreams and stick to it, I believe we will have our dream come true.

 

Just so much for that, maybe I will write more when I have the feeling~~

I have been doing as an HR intern for two month after this week. And I can't deny that I have learned something from this internship. Yes, sometimes what interns do is just some trifle thing, but it is just this stuff that makes a big difference. But I am not accustomed to some very tricky red tape, though it's dispensible to follow it everywhere(as long as I am in China.) Anyway, keep up with the good work, I tell myself.

 

As to the oral test of advanced interpretation test next month, I am not confident and well prepared for it. But I still enrolled. Just let it be, the worst situation is just wasting another 210 RMB, it's not a big deal. Hope my friends can do a good job in their test.

 Haven't updated my space for quite a long time. This term is coming to an end, so there are plenty of exams waiting for me. As for the CET-6 on 23rd, I am not fully prepared for it,so just let it be.

 I am writing my views on movies for some time, but just limited on qzone, maybe I will copy them to here. The more films I saw, the more I am confused. Life is so complicated and sometimes fate will play a joke on us. Just like he was confident to pass the exam, only to find himself 2 points away from the point line. Just like she is preparing for the big turning point of her life without paying enough attention to it.

  What about me? I am wondering and wandering. I have sensitive minds, maybe sometimes so sensitive that people will regard me as eccentric. Maybe that's my advantage, that means i can find out what others cannot.

  Sense the world with your eyes and heart as well. By the way, the Children's Day has passed, I thought that I am mature than before, but the fact is that I am still a child. In some cases, I am just letting my emotions come over me. In this way, what I have said may hurt other's feelings, if anyone who is looking at this passage and recalling of the bad feelings I have brought to you. I am apologizing to you for my carelessness.

  So I will try harder to be a sensible and smart woman, not just a girl. I am on my way. I will keep my words.

 

 

Today I went to have BBQ with friends in junior school, though we weren't skilled at cooking foods, we had a great time. After the clumsy yet joyful lunch, we sat on the grass and chatted a lot. Some are studying a second foreign language now and some are preparing for the CPA busily. Two of them are seeing somebody now. When I look on my life, I can't figure out my position. So now here is my plan for this year, and I hope I will stick to it in the following days:

Try my best to pass the oral test of interpretation test, if I failed, I would try the written test for advanced interpretation later.

Try to score high in CET-6, my ideal score this time is above 550, above 600 and I will not take it for a second time.

Begin studying Korean in the next semester, that is my junior year on campus. I will go out to learn the pronunciation and basic knowledge and study further later by my self.

During this summer vacation, I will spare one month to do a part-time job, to experience a real job and prepare myself for the years to come.

I always have a big dream but lack the perservance to hold on to it. This time, I wanna make a difference. Just as the poem of Robert Frost, two roads diverged in the yellow woods, I took the one less travelled by, and that's has made all the difference. I will take efforts to find my way~~

 

Today I am back from Songjiang Univercity City. At last, this semester is over. All that I can tell is that I'm beat through the whole semester.

 

Sometimes I wanna flee the situation that we cannot make it out, but I know it's not gonna work out. I can flee, but I can never escape.

 

Now I have been dictating VOA Special English for more than one month.I think the what triggered me into keeping this good behaviour is the day I attended the talents interview meeting at our indoor stadium. Every company wants some kind of certificate and I found that the diplomas really counts. Yep, they don't want merely graduates, they need postgraduates. They need this or that kinds of certificates. I felt pressure and that moved me into dictating.

 

Yes, just like one of my friends said, in this world, every one needs more than one masks. Sometimes to protect ourselves from harm, sometimes not to break others' heart deeper. But anyway, in the dark, at midnight, we are faced with the true self. That's when we have time and space to think of the life we are heading for.

 

Sometimes life is just a joke that God plays with us. When we strive to get out of one dilemma, we will finally end up in another dilemma, perhaps even more complicated. That's why some people try to be clever, they keep silent and change according to the treands. Maybe that's the best way to live in this complicated life. But we are all trying to live our own life.

 

I used to think that I want to be somebody in this world. But now I have changed my idea. The world will not change its pace for your account. The sun will also rise and fall even if I am not on the world any more. But there is something I am sure. In this big big world, there must be a person that to him I am the whole world. And so long as I find this person, I am not lonely any more. I believe that's why Jack gave the lifeboat to Rose. To this man, this woman is the world. Even if Rose had her family later, Jack will always have some room in her heart, in her life, in her eyes.

 

I think this kind of love is rare now, in this hustle and bustle world. But the one that own it must be the happiest person in the world. The more I think of the future, the more confused and lost I am. As I have been watching the Series LOST to the 3rd season. I find that we can find ourselves in the movies. We may make mistakes but dare not to accept that we are wrong. We may find ourselves fallen in love with someone that we shouldn't love and finally hurt them. We may ignore the nearest one who cares for you to reach for someone far far away. We may lie to cover our flaws...But like the saying goes, to err is human. I believe these people in LOST are sent to the isolated island to rescue themselves from their mistakes. And we are all in the process of knowing ourselves.

 

TO KNOW YOURSEVELS, It's easy said than done. However, i think only those we can see themselves clearly can achieve their goals, because they understand their advantages and disadvantages, thus they can make the best of their abilities.

 

I have talked too much, but without any point. Forgive my orderless words because sometimes we all need some place to let it out the feelings and thoughts.

 

To me, life is still a mysterious thing I am trying to figure out. Maybe the answer isn't that important, what is important is that I am living my life.

I am watching the first season of Desperate Housewives these days and I found it very attractive

This is a story told by a dead women-Mary Alice. The four desperate housewives' friend. Somehow she committed suicide, whereas her words lead the whole lines.

Her four friends have their unique personalities which I enjoy very much. Bree is a perfectionist who trys to perform everything A. But her family find it untolerable to live under the same roof with her. Gabriella, who used to be a model, now is the wife of Solis, although her husband has bought her tons of luxury things, she finds the life getting more and more boring. Lynette was a successful businesswoman until she became the mother of four children and took the biggest job of housewife for seven years. And Susan, who had divorced with karl, is beginning her new romance with the mysterious plumber Mike.

So their story begins. Bree and her husband separated for a while. Gabriella found her soul mate John to seek the relaxation.Lynette considered restarting her career life, and Susan was getting to Mike's heart despite the difficulties.

Although all of these women are faced with difficulties in life, some just escape them while others confront them. I enjoy one sentence "We are strong people,and we don't cry about our problems!", this was said by Solis's mother when Solis shed tears for fearing Gabriella having affair with some guy.

Although we might meet with many problems in life, but if we are brave enough to confront them, even if we are defeated in the end, we would be proud of ourselves.

Maybe you can find that many desperate housewives live around you. In fact, we are desperate sometimes,too. But that doesn't matter, what really matter is our attitudes towards the dilemma.

That's why I enjoy this series so much. I wish you can share with my views about it and life. Thank you for your patience to see it through.